Don’t know where I shall start. These past few days I feel troubled. Many things are running through my heads. Probably worry about too much things. Is it work related? I don’t think so. Personal problem? Maybe? There have been lots and lots of warning signs put for me over the months, but probably only last night I started to realize, started to pull everything together, arranged the bits and pieces of my thoughts and experiences to get a clearer picture of what has happened. Still not sure if I’ll change for the better, well I guess I will, it’s just the matter of time. You said that I like improvements, I do, and I will keep improve for the better. After all, realizing mistake is a crucial step towards change, it’s the people who doesn’t learn from mistake who doesn’t change, and thus keep making the same mistake again and again.
I was told today, look back at my early days, when I was 5, 6, 10, 15, 17, 20 years old, what are the crisis that I faced in my life? If I were to draw all of them into one picture, they said it’ll fit nicely into one picture, that without realizing, the crisis that people face over the span of their life tends to be the same. Once we have identified what our character is, match them with the crisis that we faced, it’ll be easy to understand why we responded the way we responded to the crisis that we faced.
Back to myself, people face troubles, problems (I prefer the word challenges actually) in their life. I feel that I am troubled too, but the thing is I can’t seem to understand why, the thing that came are all too sudden, too fragmented, too hazy, too ………. . However, despite all these, I’m glad that I kept going back again and again to God, knowing that He knows what’s best in His time. It’s just that I’m not sure if I can wait for His time. C’mon c’mon be patient, and everything will finally fall into place !!!
Be patient be patient to wait for His time, keep the faith … when … when …
Sorry for the messy, unstructured post. It’s a ramblings after all :p
But my righteous one[a] will live by faith.
And if he shrinks back,
I will not be pleased with him.”[b] [Hebrews 10:38]
